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Raising Awareness For Poverty - 4th Week Update

We decided to make another trip to the local supermarket. I could have been reckless and bought items that I did not need, but I decided to replace what was missing from the cupboards.

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As soon as we returned home, I cooked some pasta in sauce, followed by some porridge as I knew that I would be coming in late on this day…

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…I took my thermal cup with me and filled it with water,lemon, honey and ginger.

Monday is always radio station day, but for some reason I felt slightly more nervous than usual. All day I had been thinking about all the things I could have done and felt angry for not pursuing my passion. I had uploaded a video previously in regards to this, but I now felt like it was another person that had made the video…

..But, I still stand by my opinion. You have to exercise your freedom of expression and choice fully, as it will lead to bigger and better things. An open-minded person creates a multitude of options as they do not put barriers in the way of opportunities. This is a key trait to have if you are struggling to live a life free of poverty.

Many of us choose to remove ourselves from reality temporarily, to escape our mundane world. For some, the quick fix is to take a pill to slip away into a tranquil consciousness. This is prevalent within communities that have a high percentage of families and individuals that live in destitution. 

I, however, had not come across someone so young that felt this way..
…until that day.

His eyes were so wide, I can only describe him as looking like someone from Michael Jackson’s thriller video. How can a young man feel so disheartened by the realities of life that they would need to take a drug which is commonly used within the nightclub scene….ALONE!?

I sincerely hope that others from the younger generation do not resort to this type of escapism, as they should feel confident enough to address their issues to people who can help them to find solutions.

The next day I decided to eat some scrambled eggs and dumplings for breakfast. I’m starting to be careless with the measurements as I realize that the challenge will be over soon. I do not have any eggs left, so I will only be able to eat porridge in the mornings.

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Later that evening we packaged toys as we accepted an offer for them. We were always conscious of the fact that we want to offer our children more than what we had when we were younger - I think this is common with most parents who grew up with little or nothing. 

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Being over-generous can sometimes have a detrimental impact on children as they may not value their possessions if we are willing to inundate them with gifts that they do not necessarily need. My aim is to have a balance but my disposition can often cloud my judgement when it comes to making an executive decision.

This notion has been at the forefront of my thoughts all week. Our home has been turned upside down in an attempt to sift through the belongings that are no longer needed. In the process of doing this, we found some stuff that has been in the cupboards for at least 3 years!

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I also found a bag of 3D glasses that were given to us by a tesco representative. I’m not sure why they gave us 8 pairs, but the Harry Potter style glasses looked quite cool :-)

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One of the items that we will not be throwing way is a newspaper from 2010. Funnily enough, it has an article on poverty. At the time, they stated that families in poverty was on the rise. It mentioned that Ealing, Acton and Shepherd’s Bush fared worst, with 58% of households deemed struggling, with either the sole parent or both parents effected.

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Another statistic that cannot go unnoticed is the rise in young adults who choose to drive without a licence, tax, MOT or insurance. I met an individual who took the risk to do this, despite the advice that was given to them on numerous occasions. It turns out that this person had their car taken away from them by the police. Apparently, research shows that the combination of youth and inexperience puts younger drivers at high risk. I also think that peer pressure and ego plays a part too.

Most young adults do not want to pay for the old person that they will eventually become, as some do not envisage the possibility of earning an honest living so they turn to the streets and push illicit drugs or steal to fund their lifestyle. Some may say that this is due to a lack of parental guidance. But in a situation where mothers and fathers have to work excessively to ensure that they can offer their children a favorable way of life, should they take the full brunt of the blame?

I grew up at a time where most youth clubs were open Monday to Sunday. If I, or any other person stepped out of line, we were shown the errors of our ways by the youth leaders. I can only really speak for myself, but…I never once thought to call my parents to say that I was upset by what the youth works had said to me. I remember on one occasion I sprayed fart gas on someone, and a youth worker sprayed it on me to show me why I was wrong to do it. The same cant be said for the youth of today as they have limited resources to congregate in a supervised environment. Is this why some youths act so irrationally?

We have government run play centers neighbouring private childcare organizations in the same building with separate opening times. How is this justified?

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I am now anticipating living my life outside of the parameters that have been made to promote awareness for poverty. One thing is for sure - having the luxury of multiple options has it’s downsides too. I am more approachable, as I had limited access to the PC which mean’t that I had more time to speak with family members and friends which is a time that I truly treasure.

They say that we cannot help everyone, but I do not not believe this. We can all help each other, even if you think that it is not needed…Others will appreciate it. I have taken a past friendship for granted, and it has made me into the person I am today. We all have a role in how we can make a difference, especially in our own communities.

I had a dream where I was on a field with my close friend, Phil. We could see countless headstones and I turned and said to him ”That is us in years to come!”

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My point is….Why wait for something to happen, MAKE it happen. Our life in this world is limited, and we cannot wait for opportunities to come to us. As they say ”Knowledge is power!” - and you don’t necessarily have to pay for it. MOOC-List offers a variety of open online courses. Some of which are not accredited, but if you need a place to gain wisdom, look no further.

I met a breakdown recovery worker who has lived in the UK for only 10 years. He started off with little money and knowledge, and now he is due to be moving into his own property by the coast as he will be starting a new job with Jaguar Land Rover. He believed, and now he’s achieved his goal.

We are no different to those who live in poverty, as we were all born under the same sky. More resources are needed, and I intend on putting my view out there.

We can end poverty providing that we all have the same outlook….FREEDOM!

Stand up for something, even if it means standing alone. Because often times, the one who flies solo has the strongest wings.”

Raising Awareness For Poverty - 3rd Week Update

Slightly before I made the video on Monday we decided to visit the local supermarket to buy food. For some reason, I felt an overwhelming urge to buy ”dirty food”. Now when I talk about dirty food, I am literally referring to sugary, refined, savoury and sweet snacks. Honestly, I don’t really eat that type of food, but I now crave for something that I shouldn’t eat. Not sure if this is an self-sabotage attempt to undo the work that I have put in so far, but it is too late to over-think this idea.

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The next day I woke up late(again) as I had another late night at work. Due to this, I was rushing around my house like a mad man. Not sure if anyone else has done this but…Have you ever been so adamant that you’ve miss-placed something, and it ends up being exactly where you had left it - and you looked at the location at least three times before you looked somewhere else? Well, this is exactly what happened to me. Being unorganized an rushing at the same time can have an adverse affect on your memory. Some refer to this as having inattentional blindness, but I just thought I was having an off day.

Prior to leaving for work, I saw someone that mentioned that I had made them think twice about wasting food. I actually laughed, as I thought they were joking, but they were being honest. I never actually thought that I would receive this sort of feedback, as this is an idea that I thought of not long ago!

As I was still in a rush, I ate my porridge from the pan and left the boiled eggs in the cold water for too long. The eggs had holes galore!

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I arrived at work and unpacked the food. I started to feel guilty for buying crisps and biscuits. I offered some of the biscuits out(And scoffed the rest) and ate two packets of crisps. I then decided to punish myself for doing this buy skipping dinner. Self sabotage had now taken over my thoughts, and I broke the thought pattern by reviving a thought that I had about food welfare. 

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Some individuals are given food vouchers as they claim that they do not have enough to eat. Now, If you are not responsible with money, how can they assume that you will use the vouchers to by a wholesome meal?

A doctor wouldn’t give a pain killer addict an open prescription and ask them to buy toothpaste and mouthwash from a chemist - so why are individuals given the freedom to be irresponsible with tokens, when surely they can come up with a solution which could prevent this.

On my way home the next morning, I used the back roads to avoid the school and work traffic. I got to a road which had limited spaces to pull over so that cars could pass in the opposite direction. This is where I came across a man who obviously had somewhere important to be as he was travelling over the speed limit and missed opportunities to pull over. Instead, he insisted that I reversed as he needed to get by. I assume that he expected a heated argument as he stopped next to me instead of continuing on his journey. In a calm voice I asked him what his problem was, and asked why he stopped. He did not anticipate this and hesitated when he spoke. Part of me believes that others become undisciplined when they get behind the wheel because they have no control over other aspects of their lives.

Later this on this day I made myself pasta and quorn chicken fillets. I did not intend on being meat-free for 30 days, but it looks like i will be, as I will not be buying any meat next week. Surprisingly, it tasted pretty good. A month earlier I had visited a friends house and his Mum cooked quorn spaghetti bolognese. I think she may have planted a seed in my head.

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Being self conscious often means that you procrastinate rather than making quick executive decisions. I have a t-shirt that I really should have worn from the start, but I saw this as me being an attention seeker. I removed the goal away from the irrational decision that I made.

The next day we decided to go to a local supermarket, and this is where I put on the t-shirt for the first time. A few people looked at it and smiled, and others purposely walked back in my direction to see what the message was.

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We ensured that I ate as we made another visit to the outdoor gym. conscious of the time, I decide to cook some noodles and fried dumplings.

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Still curious to know how group meditation worked, I attended another session at my local town hall. This session was held in another part of the building which was hard to find. When I eventually found the room I felt a slightly more relaxed then the last visit.

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During the introduction video I felt like I was going to pass out, my eyes were twitching, but as soon as it had finished I gained an extra bit of energy. They started the work shop early and asked us to pair up. I spoke to a guy who traveled from Reading to attend the meeting. After our workshop he told me how it all worked. 

He spoke of the effects and the most beneficial way to meditate at home - which is to soak your feet in warm salt water. Before we left he told me about the various locations to visit and said that I should eventually attend the meditation meeting in Leicester square as the energy is powerful.

When I got home I decided to cook some dal using masala and madras curry powder.

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Going on the advice from the person that I met at the meditation session, I decided to do the foot soak. This was one of the first nights where I was alone in my house in a long time, and I was conscious of the fact that i’d be closing my eyes in the dark! Still bricking it, I decided to light a candle and put up the picture as advised.

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Slightly put off from looking at the candle and the picture,(I laughed to myself as I used the potato peeler to hold up the candle!) I decided to close my eyes for 10 minutes. I found it slightly hard to relax as I thought that the candle would fall on the wooden floor and start a fire! Would definitely try this again, but only when I know that others are in my house :-)

Got up feeling refreshed from a lonely night in my bed, I heated up the left-over dal from the night before.

…Still in high spirits, I put on a squidward plaster to cover a paper cut. Someone asked why I had a plaster on and I had to exaggerate the injury…If only they knew how funny it was to me at the time I had put it on.

The next two days were spent in reflection…

You not supposed to feel down over whatever happen to you. I mean, you’re supposed to use whatever happen to you as some type of upper, not a downer.” - Bob Marley


Raising Awareness For Poverty - 2nd Week Update

Monday 22nd – 24th September

I Left it late again to buy more food for the month. I had only drank a few glasses of water and ate some Bombay mix.

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I made an effort to get more of my point across on why I made the decision to make people aware of poverty on my radio show. For some reason I felt more relaxed then usual.


2 and a half hours after I had finished the weekly radio show, we decided to make a trip to the supermarket. All week I have been thinking about eating chick pea, as the taste of dal is becoming quite bland. I also decided to buy new seasoning as I wasn’t a fan of garram masala anymore.


As it has been quite some time since I had eaten something sweet, I made the decision to add lemon curd and rice pudding to the shopping list. Some people may think that it is nothing brag about, but when you haven’t had a single sweet in over a week, it becomes a big deal.


I got home after over 45 minutes of shopping and cut open the new spice to smell it. I have never met anyone that has been more excited then me when it comes to making food. The burden of food has subsided, as I now entered primitive mode – due to the fact that I left it late to buy food supplies! 

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I have no idea why I have avoided buying chick peas for so long. I occasionally buy ready made tins, but you cannot beat the taste of home cooked food. It is also widely known to be a high protein source. As I am being creative with the dumplings, they now look like mini flat-breads - and they also taste better too.

Subconsciously I must be thinking about quitting, as I dreamt that I ate something outside of my budget. A week and a day into this awareness challenge, I now know that this is definitely going to be a struggle. I sat down on the table early on Tuesday morning and starred into space. Doubt was at the forefront of my mind, I had to do something to break this thought process. Having access to my PC and music seemed like I had been given a day pass to freedom, which has now been taken away. I decided to do some body weight exercises. After 45 minutes I was too hungry and thirsty to think about anything else other than food and drink. For the first time in over a week I decided to make scrambled eggs. No longer was I thinking about saving, I needed change.

Just before the school run I decided to check out my local park as I heard that they had an outdoor gym. I’ve always said that you shouldn’t have to pay to keep fit, and this is definitely free!

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One thing that came to mind before I left for work was that people do not realise how much others stress when it comes to living in poverty. We also need to take into consideration that dependents do not have control of what the money gets spent on. No doubt that there are cases where individuals take the risk to gamble their money in an attempt to double or even triple the amount that they have. And what about if it goes wrong? Do they buy bread in-case of emergency, as they will not need to buy drink as tap water is free? All different scenarios were passing though my mind, and I wondered if any others had considered the possibilities.

Decided to attend a weekly meditation session as I was curious as to know how this worked in a group meeting. I have been a member of a local sensory deprivation tank centre, but this experience was totally different. I was one of the first people to arrive, and to be honest, they didn’t think that I was there to attend the session. Some people view it as a hobby for weird people, but trust me, it isn’t.

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They played a video clip to give us an understanding of how and why it is good to meditate. We were also shown how to perform the moves correctly.

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After the group meditation session they started something called the workshop. Not sure what it is but it helps you to feel more relaxed. My eyes opened and I was startled as I did not realise that the workshop host was sitting next to me. They invited me back to the session next week and gave me some information on how to meditate at home.

I was really up against it the next day as I woke up late and I had to get into work earlier than usual. Due to this, I decided to make some porridge and took some food in with me to work.

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Someone decided to cook cakes in the kitchen and it was left on the side for me to view. Although it was tempting, I decided not to have any cake. In my eyes, taking gifts from people is cheating. I accept food from my friends and family and still use the remaining funds, but would there be any point in doing that? 

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When I got home the next day I decided to have a lay in as I was up the night before. We made another trip to the local outdoor gym and made full use of the facilities available. I highly recommend the outdoor gyms as they are free and you can also get a good workout from the various exercise stations that are available to use.

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When we returned I started to feel faint as I did not eat prior to the exercise session. This had not happened to me since I was 21 and decided to go to a gym in the early hours of the morning…without eating!

I put some noodles on and ate some curried chick peas soon after. I also made a hot cup of honey,lemon and ginger as I felt really dehydrated.

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Our family came round for dinner that evening, but as we had spent some time on things that didn’t need to be done, they ended up buying take-away. Once again they had some left overs and some of it had to be thrown away. This time though, they were conscious of the waste and ate some of the food the next day…

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…On Sunday I decided to do a bit of research. I mentioned in the voice newspaper article that I did not know of any local resources for people that live in poverty, as I was unaware that there is help available. The picture below has information on how to get help if you live in the Hillingdon borough. It’s great to know, but I wonder if others know about this as I have never seen this information on any public billboards or local radio adverts.

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Raising Awareness For Destitution & Poverty - 1st Week Update

I’ve been running on empty for the best part of the day. I’m stubborn, I wont eat or drink until I’ve been to the shops to buy the months worth of food.

I met up with the family and visited the local supermarket. Unlike other times, I had to think about what I was buying. Whilst I was buying food and drink for the month I bumped into an old school friend. He told me that he earns at least £600 a week. I If were in my early twenties, I probably would have responded by saying that I earned more, or similar - even if I didn’t! Instead, I congratulated him and told him I earned less.

When I returned home, I was desperate to unpack.

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It’s 21:00 now and I have not eaten! I made a meal from an idea which was given to me by a friend. I thought that I made too much, but I forgot that I hadn’t eaten all day. I made hot lemon,honey and ginger to drink with the meal which hit the spot.

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I’ve been tempted to go back to my old ways. I sat on the PC chair and almost switched it on. I feel lost with the stuff that I’ve removed for the month. It highlights the fact that I spend a lot of time doing unnecessary things. If I am to complete this journey, I’ve got to plan my days better.

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…Just realized that I have bought all the necessary toiletries. I better take a shower as I am starting to smell!

16th - 18th September

The first day has now been completed, but it didn’t go without any issues. I found myself gravitating toward the PC chair, even when I was having a conversation. I've now realized that it is a habit that I may need to kick. I also felt to go to sleep earlier than usual. They say that the artificial light from the PC screen can keep you awake. 

For some reason, I woke up in the middle of the night, which meant that I got up later then usual. I made myself some boiled eggs and fried dumplings. I thought that I had boiled the eggs longer than I should have, but one of the yolks popped out when I cracked the egg! Normally I would have just gone back into the fridge to get another, but I was conscious of the fact that I needed to save food. 

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As I only had minimal access to the TV, I attempted to amuse myself by laying out my food in the style of Gordon Ramsay.

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After I had finished the eggs and fried dumplings, I made myself porridge using the long life milk and coconut oil. I prepared myself for the worst, but it tasted pretty good.

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Surprisingly, on this day, I got more stuff done than usual. I suppose, Living in destitution has its positives. You don’t clutter your day unnecessary tasks – Well this is what I have learnt so far. 

For dinner I had pasta in passata with frankfurters and yes you’ve guessed right, Fried dumplings. 
It tasted quite nice; it’s two days in a row now – Not sure if I will eat it tomorrow though. 

After the school run, I went into town with the family, only on this occasion I had to remember to bring my thermal cup so I had something to drink. I saw a food stand and was amazed by the selection. Not sure if it was more attractive to me because I knew I couldn’t have it, but it looked good anyway. 

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On my way home I went past Nando’s. Not going to lie, I felt envious of the people that were eating in the restaurant. But to be fair I could add chicken to my budget, but I’m not bothered by it right now. I got home and had to have a shower. Now, usually, I would use coconut oil for cooking, drinking and eating. But now, I use it to moisturize my skin. The only annoying thing is that I have to take it up with me when I shower and take it down when I’ve finished using it. 

That evening I decided to have dal and fried dumplings. But I allowed my other half to cook it for me, as she wanted to see how it is done.

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From observing her cook, I could see that she did not think about saving, as she was using big scoops of coconut oil, and she also poured the rest of the passata which I was hoping to use on tomorrow’s dinner.

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I now realize that living on a small budget means that little or nothing is wasted. Food is now becoming a burden, as I am now constantly thinking about how long my food is going to last for. 

I slept in at home, as I had a late night at work. I got up and decided to cook fried eggs this time. I did not want to waste another yolk. I also made four fried dumplings to go with it. As I needed to go to work earlier than usual today, I made my porridge using the long life milk immediately after I finished the eggs. 

I needed to cook something quick at work, I took in a sachet of pasta in sauce and a can of tuna. Whilst I was cooking the pasta I decided to attack the tuna with a can opener. As I was impatient, I didn’t fully open the tuna and attempted to open it with my bare hands which resulted in the can of tuna exploding on my t-shirt!

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Nevertheless, I finished the bowl of pasta quickly as I was starving. 

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I had quite an emotional moment at work. I witnessed a paramedic attempting to resuscitate someone in the back of an ambulance. It fully made me realize how precious life is, and made me think about how much time I have wasted. 

I think that if you are used to having things that you don’t necessary need, you take other things for granted. So many people are talking about the cost of this new iPhone, and whether they are going to purchase it. If only they valued the true meaning of communication, I doubt that they would be bothered about a device, and its purpose. 

I’m starting to realize that you may have fully utilize your freedom of expression when you are destitute. As it may potentially lead to better things. If you spend time thinking about wanting what other people have, you may never truly know what you want for yourself.

19th - 21st September

This week it’s pretty much been like - eat,sleep,work repeat! I’m now going out of my way to save anything I can. I realised that you need to let ginger and lemon sit in water for a little while to taste the full flavour of it. But I made the mistake of leaving it in the flask for too long and now it tastes like medicine!

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I decided to put over the plug hole, as the drain really smells when the washing machine is on….I think it helped.

Still in saver mode, I accidentally squeezed lemon in the coffee cup for my other half. I decided to make the coffee to see if she would notice the difference. She told me that it was the nicest coffee she has tasted. I tried not to laugh out loud, as I didn’t want to give her cause for concern.

I watched an episode of the TV series boarder control They received a tip off about illegal immigrants who were working on an onion farm in unsuitable conditions. They discovered that they earned £147 for a six day week. If you break it down to an hourly rate, it works out to be roughly £3.62 per hour. This is £2.61 under the minimum wage. It is shocking to know that someone would exploit people who are looking for a better quality of life!

In my free time, I’m starting to think about what I am going to next week. I’ve also been drawing random things.

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It’s such a struggle trying to live on a budget. Temptation is there everyday. I doubt that i’ll quit, but when you see this in your kitchen everyday it’s hard not to.

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I’ve gotta get the message out there though. Destitution is no joke!

Raising Awareness For Destitution & Poverty - Live on £50 For A Month

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Thesaurus Of Vibes Show Tracklist - Monday 18th August

16:00 - 17:00

Sade - When Am I Going To Make a Living (Poolside Tons Of Drums Edit)
Nu Shooz - I Can’t Wait
Mitch Murder - Just Til Midnight
Danny Wilson - Mary’s Prayer
Loose Ends - Hanging on a string
Skream Feat Sam Frank - RollerCoaster (Dimitri From Paris Remix)
Teena Marie - Behind the Groove
Grum feat. Electric Youth - Turn It up
Toto - Georgy Porgy
Germans - Cruel
Change - You Are My Melody
Aleem feat. Leroy Burgess - Loves on Fire

17:00 - 18:00

JR Disco - The Crown
Karin Park - Fryngies (Moullinex remix)
Free Magic/Jkriv - Night Braces (Sammy Bananas Sax Dub)
Nightcrawlers - Push The Feeling On (Silver Disco Remix)
Punches - Feeling Right (Justin Faust Remix)
Raymix - Computer Love (Troutmans Revenge)
Rhythmic Groove - More Than U Know (Original Mix)
Studio Apartment Feat. ak - Beautiful Sunrise (Sunshine Soul Mix)
R.E.D. - Chicano Life (JR Disco ‘Cubano’ Remix)
The Tabledancers - Take Me Higher (French Revo Remix)
Wattie Green - Brasilia (Original Mix)
Talking Heads - Psycho Killer (Drop Out Orchestra Rework)
Xei Feat. Beatman - Gone
George Duke - Brazilian Love Affair (Zimmer Edit)

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Hey everyone! Betsey Stevenson here from President Obama’s Council of Economic Advisers. In honor of Women’s Equality Day, I’ll be taking over I Love Charts to tell the story of the progress we’ve made in closing the earnings gap between women and men, and the challenges women still face in the workforce. 

Betsey says it better than we can. Have a look at the results. 
Also, hey, Happy Women’s Equality Day, Tumblr. 

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ilovecharts:

Hey everyone! Betsey Stevenson here from President Obama’s Council of Economic Advisers. In honor of Women’s Equality Day, I’ll be taking over I Love Charts to tell the story of the progress we’ve made in closing the earnings gap between women and men, and the challenges women still face in the workforce. 

Betsey says it better than we can. Have a look at the results

Also, hey, Happy Women’s Equality Day, Tumblr. 

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